46 the new 16

At 46 years old you would think that I would finally know my place in life.  Well guess what I don't. I feel like I did when I was 16.  I was not quite an adult but no longer a little kid.  My forties have the same feel for me. I'm to old to really hang out with people in their 20's and early 30's  but not quite old enough to want to be around people in their late 50's or early 60's except for a select few.  I have trouble  deciding on fashions.  I don't want to dress like my 23 year old daughter  but at the same time I don't want to dress like a grandma.  What to do?

I've decided to be me just like I did at age 16.  I was very mature at 16 so I found it hard to hang out with people my own age.  Thank goodness for a sister that was 5 years older :).  She was cool and let me hangout with her and her friends.  Back then I felt like a young person trapped in an old person's body.  And now I feel just the opposite.  I'm not old.  I don't look old and I certainly don't feel old.   It's hard for me to look in the mirror and think I will be 50 in three years.  People see me with my daughter and think we are sisters.  And besides it's really fun to keep people guessing about my age.


  I'm going to continue going out and having as much fun as possible.  I will continue to dress in what I consider age appropriate clothes and be the best me I can be!!!!!!  So to anyone else struggling with what's "age appropriate"  I say forget about it  and just have fun.